The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of events and emotions that have literally left me unable to find the words that do it all justice.  And perhaps there is a bit of selfishness there too for I have been savoring the moments…the lifechanging, heart filling sweet moments… and holding them for myself for a bit before the whole world knows.

It’s often been said that you find what you want in life when you’re not really looking for it.  It’s true!

My heart has always been filled with the desire to find that one special man to share my life with…. my soulmate, my partner, my other (and best) half.  Twice divorced, I’ve found myself too often “looking” and making bad life decisions because of it.  In the process of the physical, emotional and spiritual healing after surgery I stopped looking…. realizing instead that I needed to focus on living my best life possible with myself and God.  Only then would the desires of my heart be met, perhaps not in the way I had planned or wanted, but certainly in God’s plan.

I truly never expected to marry again… and then the Jokerman came into my life!

I’ve known him for months now but until the last 2 months had never allowed myself to give it a chance.  Though there has always been a strong attraction there between the two of us since the first day, I had trouble seeing past the flimsy excuses I had for not opening my heart to him at that point in my life.  He’s older than me…. ok so what difference does 5 years make at our age anyway?  NONE!  He has the same name as one of my ex’s… oh he is so NOT like that one!  At that point in my life I was looking too hard and not seeing what was standing right in front of me.

We re-connected by chance 2 months ago.  Neither one of us were expecting what happened but both of us found out that in the sharing of the dinners and the laughter and the good times and the quiet times and the busy days, we fell in love when we were least expecting it or looking for it. 

So much in love that he asked me to marry him a week and a half ago… and I said YES without hesitation!  Too soon perhaps in other’s estimation…. but we’ve known each other long enough to know that we were meant to be together for the rest of our lives.  There is no date set yet… it could be next month or it could be several.  For now we’re savoring the moments and our commitment to each other in life.

Even now somehow the words that say all that is my heart right now escape me.

I can’t imagine my life without this man as my partner!  Thank God I don’t have to.